Worked and went to Old San Juan, Got Asked If I was Real

6:27 AM (of Wednesday, May 11th 2022)

Today is Tuesday, May 10th 2022 and it was a good day today. I am very behind on my journal entries. I have so many I need to write, but they're all mostly the same. This morning I did 100 push ups, 3 minutes and 30 seconds of planking, and around 100 arm curls with around 17 to 20 pounds. It used to be more like 22 to 27 pounds, but my dad reduced the weight of the adjustable weight dumbbell and I haven't bothered adding back onto it.

I would actually make a lot of progress on my workout efforts and be a lot thinner and more toned, but I just eat so much. I ate another like 4000+ calories today. Do not follow my example on this. Never eat this much. I eat even when I'm not even hungry. I could be feeling full and eat some junk food just because it's there. I think I am also subconsciously eating a lot because my weight dropped to 184.6 pounds on Saturday evening I believe, and subconsciously I was like, that's the sign that I can and should eat as much as I want.

My weight went back to 188.1 pounds today which is a sign that I need to stop eating so much. It's great that I don't kill and eat any animals and haven't for over 9 years, and most people need to follow that example to save the animals, the planet, and themselves. I credit my endurance (being able to jog for over 2 hours very easily, can do it for much longer but haven't pushed myself through the boredom wall of repetitively jogging for that long) and strength (able to do 40 push ups in a row) at my overweight weight and high fat %, on me not killing and eating animals.

Honestly if I were a lot lighter, like 150 pounds, my dream weight, and I think it is so easy for me to get there too, like I know exactly how to get there, and yet I am my own worst enemy in that regard, I think I would look so attractive and be able to do much crazier fitness feats. I would probably be able to run for 20 hours straight and do like 200 push ups in a row without stopping or something. I feel I can probably run for 6 hours straight without stopping right now in my current state and still not feel tired. I ran for 120 minutes on the treadmill a few times, literally only stopping because I was so bored, not due to being tired. Even though I would sweat a lot in that time period, I honestly did not feel tired.

If I do a search for online for "40 push ups in a row" some people have made videos of it and titled it their personal best and personal record, people that are much thinner and look more toned and muscular than me. I get that I would also look more toned and muscular if I lost weight though. I'm pretty shocked because I can already match some people's personal bests. I can do 40 push ups in a row at my weight, and I weigh a lot, and also I am fat. I get that I don't look fat in my photos, but that's just the angles and me sucking in my stomach in and all that, in reality my BMI is nearly obese. The only way to prove that I have a lot of weight to lose still, is to lose that weight, and then me being this weight would finally look overweight.

Okay, when I get down to 150 pounds, I want to do the 24 hour treadmill challenge. Where am I going to get a treadmill to use though? There's some guy that did it. 24 hours is pretty much all a mental game I think. Maybe I am just extremely fit, even though I am overweight, but honestly I feel like I have unlimited endurance to jog. If I go at a 5 mph pace, I feel like I can jog literally for eternity. Actually before the 24 hours on a treadmill challenge, I want to do 100,000 steps in a day first, and also do 100 push ups in a row first.

I think if I want to do 100 push ups in a row, I will have to do 500 push ups a day for a month. How can I do that much in a day? That sounds really crazy. But okay, I will try it tomorrow (Wednesday). I will have to do 10 push ups in a row 50 times. Or maybe I should make it 20 push ups in a row, 25 times? I think I'll do 10 push ups in a row for the first 100, and then see if I can do more than 10 in a row from there. If I do 50 push ups per hour, for 10 hours, I would do 500 push ups. I think that's the plan then. I have to do 50 push ups per hour tomorrow.

Anyway what else? Throughout the day it was very busy. I worked on Vegpal mainly and I got a lot of work done separating the pause time hours between friendship and dating. I have gotten sort of decent working on Flutter at this point and I feel like I can do anything that I am asked to do. I also learned how to update the mongodb today using mongosh, I also just learned this on my own. I feel competent and confident. Maybe it's Dunning-Kreuger effect, but I am like extremely confident in my development abilities right now. I just feel very competent. And confident.

I worked for like 10 hours or more today. I did a lot. All that development work. And I knew what I was doing. And I feel like not many could have done it better than I have. This is like basically in every programming task I do though, I feel like I write the cleanest and best code. Do I though? I don't know. Maybe I am just obnoxious and arrogant in that regard, but I really do feel that way sometimes. Also no, I just realized so many mistakes I made today, that I could have written elegantly but just didn't because I wanted to get work done asap. So no, I don't always write the cleanest and best code, but I try. Here is an example of some elegant code I wrote which converts a word document to HTML:

https://github.com/justmegawatt/Word-To-HTML-Converter/blob/master/wordtohtml.py

Here is another which is a web scraping bot I wrote back in 2016:

https://github.com/justmegawatt/web-scraping-bot-downloader/blob/master/Web%20Scraping%20Blog%20Downloader.py

Actually looking at the above code now, there are many ways to improve it. Some of the function names weren't clear enough or they could have been improved. I see some comments that could be deleted. Some functions are too long. I can see a lot of refactoring. It's good though, but not the best.

I don't have too many public repositories, but everything I work on looks that good though I think. Most of the stuff I work on like Vegpal and even this website is entirely private, but you can imagine the code I write to be that nice and clean looking. Not in all instances though. But yeah I have written a ton more private repository code and I think they are elegant as possible. They are so beautiful to read and look at. I have some pride in some of the work I do. If I didn't waste so much time watching anime I could get so much more done. The world of potential is limitless for me. If only I could do what I knew to do and followed a plan, then things would be so much easier, but I have a self discipline problem. Despite knowing how to do things, I don't do things sometimes and that causes problems.

I pretty much know how to do anything and get anything done. That doesn't mean I will do that thing or get that thing done though. I just have the knowledge. I have the ability to think and plan to complete whatever, and all this comes so easily to me. I just have a hard time following through. Like doing 500 push ups a day. I just need to do 50 per hour to get that done. Easier said than done though. This can be applied for anything too. I wish I wasn't so lonely though. Why do I have to do everything alone?

After work I went out with my dad and we went to Old San Juan. We just walked around and took some pictures here and there. I had a lot of fun.

At night, a girl I talked to a few months ago and haven't talked to since messaged me and asked if I was real. That I seemed too good to be true, my life seemed too good to be true, after looking at all the cool photos on my Facebook. I took this as like the best compliment ever I guess. To be asked if I was real? Yes I am real... Want me to take a selfie? Want me to write some note on a piece of paper and then take a selfie? In the bathroom? On the floor? On a tree? I sent her some other random photos though that I would never upload online anywhere because I thought they looked bad, and she still they said they looked terrific. I have a bunch of bad photos I will never put up online.

I probably didn't write the entry of it yet, but I went to the first Apple Store back in the whole world last week on Sunday, back when I was in Virginia. I took some photos there, but I will never upload those photos anywhere because they were ugly and bad!! And I looked overweight. She said that photo looked terrific too? It's weird, she has over 1000 friends on Facebook and none of them have as good photos as me? Wow. Hard to believe.

In Old San Juan my dad took pictures of me. Here's some photos I will probably never upload anywhere online, well except here I guess, because I think they look bad. They don't pass my standards enough for me to post them on my Facebook. These were random spontaneous pictures in some areas we went to for the first time today. I look fat in them too. Also all my waterfall and river pictures and other pictures like that, those are taken with full intention. Like I have it fully planned that I will go to this waterfall and take some photos there, so it's all thought of ahead of time. These random photos today were random and spontaneous. I was not planning on taking any photos at all, so I literally just wore whatever and didn't really care.

How am I still single if like some people think I am "too good to be true"? I feel like I am not that successful with women. I try too. I have to do 500 push ups a day for a month I guess and lose a bunch of weight and improve my appearance a lot more so I can take even better photos. It's all up to me.

Anyway that was my day today.