7:36 AM (of Thursday, May 21st 2020)
Today is Wednesday, May 20th, 2020. I think Wednesdays are my busiest days because that's when most of my homework is due for the week. I also procrastinate a lot and end up doing all my homework on Wednesday, the same day it's due. This is a habit I have to break in order to get higher grades. I have an A in my course right now, but I would say I average a C+ for all the classes I've taken so far. It takes several hours to complete my homework and it's not a fun process when I want to go to sleep but still have homework to work on.
Then, every 10th, 20th, 30th/31st of the month are also some of my busiest days because I'm running several Habitica challenges and have to manage them on those days. It takes about 1-2 hours of work for this.
Then every morning I have to update a daily weight loss log, taking pictures, measurements, etc, every morning (it's all in the Public Logs page). This takes maybe 30 minutes roughly, since I can do it pretty quickly now.
Then I have a full day of work too, and I have a lot of work assigned. Combine all those things together and that makes me very busy, especially on certain days. I know I'm not that busy compared to a lot of other people I've spoken to, but still relatively busy to myself since I'm not doing much most days, especially weekends.
Today, Wednesday, was a very busy day though. It was a Wednesday so I had lots of homework due. It was a 20th today so I had the Habitica challenges to manage. Then it was a work day, so I had 8-9 hours of full time work to do. So yeah it was the perfect storm for a perfectly busy day.
I started off in the morning getting all my pictures and measurements for my daily logs, and then just because I felt like I could, I recorded a video and put it up online. Recording and putting the video up took about two hours, even though the final footage was only 16 minutes.
After that was work. There's a lot of projects and assignments that I have now. 3 separate projects, several completely different assignments in each. I don't think it's that bad, but I don't know who else I can compare my workload to. I don't know if most people would say they have too much work if they were given the same things I was assigned, or if they would say it's not a lot of work. But I'm leaning on thinking that most people would say they have a lot of work if they were given the same assignments. But I don't know.
Anyway at 6 PM I was contemplating on going out and cycling. Wouldn't that have been fun? I think my day would actually have been better if I did. I think I would have been more productive overall. Instead I just procrastinated for the next 2-3 hours just browsing the Internet. I was kind of tired from work and just wanted a break too though.
After that was homework. Man I had to read a bunch of studies, journal articles, and so on, and it was complicated to read through a lot of these. A lot of them track quantitative and qualitative data, and they put a lot of charts and figures. This is why I don't know if I have a lot of work or not. I don't think I can do the kind of work these researchers do, it seems so complicated and time consuming.
While doing research I stumbled upon Godel, Escher, and Bach again. It's a book I have on my shelf. I bought it years ago. I read through some of its very loaded pages and haven't read it since. I don't know what it's about, just a vague notion of how those three geniuses in three different fields relate to machine intelligence or whatever. Each page is so loaded with information, and it's such a small font, and there's like 800 pages, that it's a seriously hard book to read. Who reads this for pleasure?! I don't know if I could ever read such a book in my entire life. I get quite bored reading articles without any pictures nowadays.
I used to read a lot of books, and it used to be fun and educational. Now I know a lot of the information in these books. It feels like "I already know this" so what's the point of me reading through them? It's also very boring to read through books. Is there something wrong with me that I no longer find books pleasurable to read? I think books are a great medium to spend one's time on, probably the most productive medium to spend one's time on. But I can't get myself to concentrate long enough to get through it.
I'm not diagnosed with ADD or ADHD, and I don't think I would be either if I were taken to be tested. I can concentrate on things for long periods of time, like homework, but if it's boring and optional (homework and work are both mandatory), then I have a hard time not diverging my attention elsewhere. This is why I'm not so good at math anymore. I used to be, used to know a lot of math and such, but it feels so boring now and I haven't done it in years, to the point that I've gotten rusty and don't know it anymore, and don't want to be bothered with studying it anymore.
I think my pleasure senses are just too high. Anything less than a certain threshold of entertainment value, I dismiss. But anyway, I worked on my homework, and I was bored out of my mind but I pushed myself to doing it. Why is it so boring? I don't know if I would be able to do physical labor either, because it's the same thing over and over again. I find cycling and exercising fun though. But I don't know if I could do the physical labor for construction, having to put up scaffolds, digging, laying bricks, etc.
I think I need to go out again. It's been a few days since I last went out. I want to walk around and maybe bicycle too. I should have done that today since the sun was out.
After finishing my homework, I just went right to sleep. I didn't manage the Habitica tasks today because I was too tired from doing homework and just wanted to sleep. I just finished my homework, shut down the computer, and then went to sleep. It was a very busy day. I got a lot of things done. Overall I still feel pretty good and happy, I just don't know why I'm so bored with things now. I don't want to be bored of things like homework and studying. Maybe I need to get rid of all the high value entertainment I go through?
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