July 10, 2020

It's good to be back

Well, June has gone and I really though that 1st of june was the middle of the year (what?!!!)

Anyway, I stopped writing for over a month now and my life is a shithole right now so I guess it's better for me to just start wrrriting again. I had many things this couple of monts, a good friend my aged (23) died in a terrible accident, the world is going to doom and it's depressing. I missed this, really, I need some change and something to boost me and kick me in the butt just enough for me to realize that the world is still spinning and we are still alive.

Like the stoics say "Memento Mori" that it means "remember, dead" You'll die soon, and despite what's going on around the world I need to keep going and working towards my goals and ambitions.

Right now I'll be working with clear decisions in mind, consistency and resilience will be my motto, while ambition and the pursue of something better (happiness) is the fuel that keeps me going and the goal is the pavement that keeps me on track but I'll be trying to enjoy it as much as I can knowing that each minute of this life is our only chance to enjoy it and we can find that ambition fulfilled (happiness) in each second of work and focus, in each drop of our sweat and in the feeling that there is hope at the end of the tunnel, whatever that means for each of us, for me is to get better and be a better person (more knowledgeable, keener, just better in every ambit) and how are going to feel when we reach that height or level. It's going to be awesome.

This is an entry that is all over the place but it's my comeback from a long pause in my life so bare with me. I'll get better.

Oh, and I just wanted to transcribe sam's speech from LOTR the two towers, it hit me badly.

"It's all wrong, by rights we shouldn't even be here, who we are?"

"It's like in the great stories Mr.Frodo the ones that really mattered, full of darkness and danger they were. Sometimes you didn't want to know the end, because how could the end be happy, how could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened. But in the end, it's only a passing thing, the shadow, even darkness was pass, a new day will come. And when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer.

Those are the stories that stayed with you, that meant something. Even if you are too small to understand why. But I think mr. Frodo, I do understand, I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances to turn back only they didnt, they kept going, because they were holding on to something... -Mr. Frodo- What are we holding on to Sam? -Sam- That there's some good in this world Mr.Frodo and it's worth fighting for."


Written by johanam

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