Oct. 14, 2020

I Miss the Coffee Shops

I'm not a very social person offline (and barely social online) and have severe social anxiety that keeps me from making friends or doing social things. But I do occasionally like to go to coffee houses where I write. Mostly I do this alone, but with NaNoWriMo coming up in a couple weeks, I'm really starting to miss the comradery of writing in a group. We used to go to a local coffee house every Sunday afternoon and sometimes meet up in the food court of a grocery stores nearby during the week. I didn't get to go to any write-ins last year because of the fatigue making it impossible for me to drive. And the year before that, I only made one meeting because of scheduling and anxiety.

Now, I have a little more energy, and my anxiety is a little more under control, but I still can't go to write-ins. Obviously with the pandemic, write-ins with groups of paper are a no-go, but even if I wanted to go alone and just watch people and work on my own, I can't because the coffee shop I go to isn't open to sitting inside, nor would I just sit for hours inside because it's not safe. So I'm stuck writing at home with all of the distractions. I always went to the coffee house so the kids couldn't bug me, now I don't have the choice.

I'm starting to worry I won't be able to do NaNoWriMo. I was going to try to get most of the writing done in the morning while the 10yo is doing Zoom meetings, but if my daughter is down here, she assumes I want to chat and be social. I don't. I want quiet. I've won in the past with small kids (including a baby) by writing late at night, but now they all stay awake late and continue to but me until two in the morning, and I now need to go to bed by midnight anyway.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

I spent most of yesterday tired and frustrated. I did finish a little knit project of a small pumpkin. I want to make some more for decorations for the fall. But I didn't get any writing or outlining done. I tried so I have a few mentions of it in my writing journal.

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And now it's 9am, I haven't gotten anything done because the oldest daughter is telling me about some show she's watching even though it's obvious I'm trying to work.

Written by justanotherjen

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iyazo
Posted On Oct 15, 2020

I really miss being able to go out too, it certainly takes its toll. I hope you can do NaNoWriMo. I've never done it but I have friends who do it. That pumpkin is adorable!

Plesi`
Posted On Oct 19, 2020

I also love the pumpkin :D. My mom also likes to work with wool, recently she's been doing "Häkeln" which is similiar to knitting but only with one bended needle. Maybe she will do Something like that as well. Atm she's making a dragon plushie.

justanotherjen
Posted On Oct 20, 2020

@Plesi` I looked that up--it's crochet! I do that, too. I just happened to find the knit pattern first for the pumpkins, but I might look for more that are crochet--the knitting is killing my hands right now.

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