Oct. 23, 2021

So New Problems

Like I don't have enough chronic illnesses and pains to deal with...

So the other night, I felt this tweak in my back as I bent over to get into bed. I ignored it at the time because it was just one pinched muscle it felt like and I slept just fine. The next day, I had completely forgotten about it until it got to be around dinner time. I was making dinner and noticed my back aching more and more the longer I was on my feet. Annoying but whatever. I have backaches all of the time. I sucked it up and finished dinner. It wasn't until I was getting into bed that I noticed the "tweaked" feeling was worse.

The next day, I was trying to clean the kitchen, but the more I bent over to pick stuff up, the worse my back got. It wasn't just some muscle ache either. I kept getting stabbing pains in my lower back to the left of my spine. This feels very much like when I ruptured a disc in my upper back 21 years ago (after my first c-section) but not as intense.

Yesterday, I realized things were bad. Bending over caused the tweaked/stabbing pain in my back. And whatever was going on has started to pinch my sciatica because I'm getting shooting pains all the way down my leg when I'm standing or sitting a certain way. I was worried about how I was going to sleep, but I had relatively little pain while in bed last night. This morning, I felt okay when I got up, just weak in my lower back. I did my best not to bend over as much as I could, but eventually, I did something aggravate whatever is wrong and now it aches when I'm just sitting here while also pinching my sciatica (which is the most annoying part at the moment).

The biggest problem is I can't be on my feet for long periods of time. I made myself a sandwich for lunch, and the longer I was standing, the more my back hurt to the point I was hunching over trying to keep my lower back straight and partly because I just couldn't straighten my back out anymore. This is worrisome. Like I said, it's very similar to how I felt when I hurt my back in 2000. That was never diagnosed but I read a description of a ruptured/bulged disc once and it described my symptoms 100% perfectly. It eventually healed on its own. I really hope this is something else.

I had to tell my husband he'd have to figure out what to make for dinner because there's no way I can be on my feet that long (it usually takes me an hour of leaning over the counter/stove to prep and cook). I think he's making burgers and fries. Of course, my husband is kind of a one-trick pony when it comes to cooking. So once the burgers are gone, I don't know what we'll eat. I do 98% of the cooking in the house, and if I don't cook, my kids will literally just go without instead of making something for themselves.

My husband said if it's not feeling better in a week or getting worse, he'll make me go to the doctor to get some X-rays or whatever.

This just really sucks. My weight is already awful because of the chronic fatigue keeping me from doing even housework. I had started playing Pokemon Go again in the hopes of getting out and walking more (too bad I live in the Pacific Northwest and it's the rainy season 75% of the year, ugh). Now I have no hopes of losing weight short of starving myself because between not exercising and my meds, I gain weight eating the bare minimum for survival.

If it's not one thing it's another. I did not need another chronic pain to deal with right now.

Written by justanotherjen

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