Currently listening to: Beacon by Psychic Guilt .. I am officially a physics student, and I have finished my paperwork. This could be entry number 57, but I have forgotten to write a daily entry for ten days. .. During my introduction week, I met so many cool people. I had to take many breaks becau...
Currently listening to: nothing .. .. I am currently doing okayish. I felt a little bit ugly about myself. But that's it. I spent some time with my friends and watched some anime with some people. That was fun. .. .. I hate this feeling of being ugly. I know that I am not ugly. My eye makeup skills ...
Currently listening to: Red Light by Siouxsie and the Banshees .. .. I am feeling kinda sick today. This bothers me a lot, because I want to watch some movies with a few friends tomorrow. I hope I am only sick for one evening. .. .. I am currently having a good time. I don't feel any issues with my...
Currently listening to: Waiting list by Lebanon Hanover .. .. I am too tired to write the entry. Nevertheless, I try my best to do so because I have a few things I need to do. .. I had a good day. That's it. I spoke with a few friends and did a few quick sketches. Nothing special. I finished my pap...
Currently listening to: Red Light by Siouxsie and the Banshees .. .. Again, I struggled with my physical health. I need to schedule an appointment with my doctor soon. .. Mental health: I can finally talk about my mental health again. Today I realised that many people see me as a stupid person, be...
Currently listening to: Wonda by Caravan Palace .. Today, I should call my entry physical health journey. .. Today I went on a short trip with a friend of mine. Unfortunately, it didn't last long because I had severe period pain. It was so bad, I forgot about the pain. All I can remember are the peo...
Currently listening to: Red Light by Siouxsie and the Banshees (My fav band right now) .... .... I am currently thinking about visiting a concert of a band I will see at a festival next year. Besides that, I was thinking about going to a party this evening. Not sure if I do this. Might decide this i...
I need to answer the comments as soon as possible. I am trying my best over the next few days. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Currently listening to: Adrenaline by Rosetta Stone ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The last few days were exhausting. I need some routine to function properly. I am glad the next semester starts in less than...
Currently listening to: You and You Alone by Funhouse ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I hate being the ugly friend. Because of my ED, I gained some weight (I am currently on a diet to fix this). Therefore, I have more body fat than my friends. I noticed a pattern:The skinny friends always get compliments fro...
Currently listening to: nothing ~~~ I am still alive, everyone! Hello! ~~~ This weekend was pretty exhausting. My parents visited me. We had some tea and cake. ~~~ I am feeling pretty depressed lately. I feel extremely weak and struggle with simple tasks. Or tasks I really enjoy doing, like readin...
Currently listening to: My Ordinary Life by The Living Tombstone ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TW: ED, depression, terrible body image ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My day was okayish. I have been playing my favourite game and after writing this entry I will r...
Currently listening to: This Wheel's on Fire by Siouxsie and the Banshees ~~~ I guess I am a person who has to deal with jealousy. Today, I will reflect on this. The first reason I can think of is the fear of replacement. My depression keeps telling me I am not a great person; therefore, I fear tha...