This Life Ends

9:30 AM

How seriously do people take the idea that this life ends? I had a dream related to that idea last night. For some reason my dream was about my family, my parents and I, clearing these RPG-like stages, except instead of a video game, it was real life. Every night we'd go to sleep, and these people would set up the stage for us to complete, it could be like a haunted house or clearing a hike or something. When we woke up, we'd see this stage set up for us, and my parents and I would just attempt to do it. If we failed, the stage would be reset. It's all apparently recorded and televised, but we had no idea it was. I'd find out when I woke up at night and saw people setting things up and cleaning.

I don't really remember much of the events anymore, for the haunted house there was something with the mirror and seeing a painting, and it being haunted or something. For the hiking, I just remember some vague memory about hiking through a river.

The idea that this life will end, came from completing one of the stages, and someone had to be killed, I think he was the perpetrator of the stage or something. He was killed by being put into this tiny building, like a building 6 feet high, so it's one that most people barely fit into, and the building slowly lowered into the ground, crushing the person inside. After witnessing this person get crushed and die, I tried it out for myself. I got into this tiny building, and it lowered slowly, until I had to bend my neck to stay inside, and then I eventually got my neck snapped and I died, I think. I don't know if I survived that event or not, I woke up shortly after with the idea that this life ends. Those three words.

I was a kid at one point, and now that entire part of my life is over. It's like that version of me died. I was 18 at one point too, and I thought that was old, compared to my younger ages. We take for granted our current year, our current age, because we think that it will last forever, but it ends.

5:19 PM

Today I did all my dailies again, and I did my laundry. Yesterday I skipped out on doing my dailies. I did do some of them, such as brushing my teeth and doing the brain exercises, but I didn't do the other ones because I was with a friend the whole day basically. Eric and I hung out the whole day.

I finished this anime called "When Supernaturan Abilties Became The Norm" today, which I started again last night. This is my 2nd time or so watching it. It's an alright anime, pretty funny, but very standard I guess.

I started up this new anime called Yamada-kun and the 7 witches, which I've already seen before. It starts off with the main character who is a delinquent student, switching bodies with an honor roll girl, when they accidentally kissed. The whole series is based off of this plot, and yeah the series explains how they received these powers and how it all happens.

I love this anime. It's so wholesome, sweet, and innocent. It only has the tone of being innocent to me because I've already seen the whole series. This is probably my 3rd or 4th time watching this anime, and it's just so innocent. There's nothing sinister or evil I can take from this, even though the plot and the conflict might at times feel like the bad guys are sinister, they get into fights and have ploys against each other, but there's actually no bad guys. They're all just students trying to get along.

I'm surprised at how much time has passed already today. It's already 5:28 PM and I feel like barely anything has happened at all. I did do all my dailies again, so I did my push ups, chin ups, pull ups, I washed the dishes, I swept the floors, I did everything on my daily to do list, but it feels like nothing has happened.

11:16 AM (of Tuesday, March 5th 2024)

So I'd go to Costco later today, bought some peanut butter powders, juice powders, protein powder, healthier pro-biotic vegan soda, kombucha, and a portable SSD storage. Then I'd go to the gym again with some friends, Eric and Guy.

Oh yeah, and it's the 3rd year anniversary of me moving to Puerto Rico today. Three years, they went by so quickly. I met a lot of people, fell in love a few times, had two girlfriends, traveled to over 10 countries, moved to an entirely new place, bought a home, bought a car, got an associate's degree (after taking 5-6 years to get it since 2016) made lots of new friends, gained over 1500 followers, lost 40 pounds, went hiking a bunch of times, did so many things, all in three years. Vegan the whole time too, so there is no excuse for anyone to hurt and kill animals.

It still feels like nothing happened the whole day. I felt like messaging Mary or Wahl again today, but I held off. I'm going to lose weight and get six pack abs first before I message either of them. I can't believe it's been like a month or so since I last saw Mary. The time went by so quickly. I hope she can take me back. I've improved in my organization and everything since then.

But yeah, life does end. It seems like it doesn't. While we're living it, it feels like we have all of eternity to experience everything, but there is always a deadline, even if it seems like we have all the time in the world. Especially for me, my work is very lenient on everything. I can do whatever, whenever. I love my work. There's no set deadlines, and yet, I need to realize that there are always deadlines.