July 2, 2020

Level Up Skills July

This month the goal I'm focusing on is getting back into drawing regularly. It used to be a fun hobby for me, but depression has made it difficult to keep up with. I need to not worry so much about what my art comes out looking like sometimes as long as I continue to practice, then I'll improve. Some better things to focus on would be making sure that I stay consistent and draw every day, even if it's only a bunch of scribbles and doodles. I know that my art isn't as good as it used to be because I'm out of practice, so working on it again I should be able to get back to the skill level I was at previously, at the very least. Today all I did was coloring for an hour, but I enjoyed it and found it relaxing to just sit on the floor with a box of crayons like a kid. The day before I doodled in my notebook a bit. Little steps forwards.

Other skills I would like to work on this month:

  1. Improving my sewing quality and speed (most important because I make my own bedding for my rabbit)
  2. Working with my garden to make sure my plants stay alive and healthy (second most important because I want to keep them alive and thriving!)
  3. Improving my reading speed so that I can finish at least two books this month (another hobby I want to regain interest in from battling depression)

Today was a pretty good day over all. I actually woke up on time and had therapy first thing in the morning. After that I talked to my case manager about different options I have. I found out that I will have a place to stay until November with my own room, which is a huge deal for me. I reconnected with my aunt, who is offering to help me in any way that she can even though I know she herself is struggling (while I want to help her where I can, outside of just prayer - she has cancer so there is only so much that I can do). My housemate and I made chicken alfredo which was pretty good and finished it off with homemade brownies! I'm not much of a sweets person, but my housemate appreciated it, which is all I could really ask for. That said, I still struggled with depression today and it really took pushing myself to get everything done. The things I didn't get done will still be there tomorrow though, so it's no use worrying over nothing important. My housemate went to spend the night at a friend's house so it's just me here which feels strange. I don't think I'm going to like living alone, at least not until I get my pets back soon. I really miss them. This weekend Stormy gets to come home! It took a lot of convincing, but I'm sure they'll love the sweet boy and realize he's no trouble at all.

Written by iyazo

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