Been feeling this…malaise? depression? I don’t feel like doing anything, and the inside of my head is too quiet. That’s why I default to things that passively fill the space with sound, like art videos or game streams, or listening to music while spacing out and/or wasting time in FR/LD chat. Everything’s a bit foggy. I can’t focus on work, and can’t wait for the work day to end, but then evening rolls around and I don’t know what to do with myself.
But sometimes the morning is sunny and I step outside for a bit and everything is good in the moment.
But I can’t count on that in mid-November, and even if I could, the sun goes down nine hours before I go to bed.
It’s kind of like being bored, except I doggedly refuse to do anything that might make me less bored, so what do I expect? I was playing Metaphor and enjoying it, but then I ran out of momentum and stopped. Over vacation I finished reading Robert Jackson Bennett’s City of Stairs, and started reading A Trade of Blood, so that’s good.
(reading A Trade of Blood while listening to Starset – INFECTED is peak)
(p.s. @JustMegawatt you might like A Trade of Blood. it’s a fantasy murder mystery, but both the victim and the chief suspect are from rival families in the meat industry, and there’s a lot of commentary on the brutality/barbarism caused by consumers’ demand for meat)
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JustMegawatt
I have those days too where I waste a lot of time with passive activities. I notice that when I'm interested in other activities then I lose interest in watching any anime or reading any manga (my usual go-to passive activities). So I think we just have to keep ourselves occupied. Awesome book recommendation and easy name to remember, seems to be the third book in the series and the first book won a ton of awards including Hugo's best novel for 2025, that's an insane award. I rarely read non-manga fiction, but I may check out the first book and continue from there at some point.
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