April 30, 2021

Overwhelming but Much Needed Socialization

Today was a somewhat crazy day.. well, it has been a crazy week honestly. I have been really struggling to stay on track, be productive, motivated, and getting my shit done. I'll try to summarize the cycle I seem to find myself stuck in often.

  1. Make a list or think of all the things I need to "get done" (Not really considering deadlines much or priority/importance)
  2. Get overwhelmed thinking of all the things I need to do and how easy I could fail, or what if I don't do it well?
  3. Sit there for way too long contemplating things, don't realize how much time has gone by. It's like I'm so paralyzed in thought and overwhelming that all I can think of doing is laying down. I get physically exhausted just thinking about -everything-
  4. Feel more stressed and guilty for not getting my shit done and just wasting time sitting there frustrated. I really have a difficult time getting myself to just ACT instead of getting caught up in the "kajs;dfkajs;dkfja" of my brain.
  5. Be depressed because I know I could have done better than I did.. or am. Then I feel shitty about myself and confirm my 'beliefs' that I'm just pretending to be smart and helpful but really I'm a shitty, mean, loser.

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

All I really NEED to do is pick the hardest thing and START on it! Then, everything else is easy once I get the motivation going. My schedule always seems to get thrown off somehow though.

Written by Zmoney420

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iyazo
Posted On May 01, 2021

Sounds like executive function disorder to me. I have it too. It can be difficult to manage. I take one task and break it into smaller steps, only focusing on one thing at a time. It's hard to do, but it works to keep me from being overwhelmed by too many things that I need to get done. It's easy to beat yourself up over it, but it's a common problem, especially if you also deal with anything like dissociation or ADHD

JustMegawatt
Posted On May 01, 2021

I think everyone has these problems. Everyone could have "done better", everyone has problems starting tasks, etc. Sometimes the hardest task is the hardest task to start, you can probably start at the easiest first.

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