Dec. 20, 2020


Today was a lazy, restful Sunday. I got up for church and stayed a bit afterwards to chat with everyone (it's all online right now because of covid). I made an effort to remember today's parable because my memory is shit. and I do remember it because I remember thinking it sounded more like Bible fanfiction than anything else. I don't know why I go to church. I guess I don't like to be alone. I believe that God is more of an incomprehensible force, and I also believe in lesser deities/Gods, and in reincarnation. I don't think that's what they believe as a protestant church. That's ok. I'll just keep my thoughts about that stuff to myself. I don't think they would approve of me being a witch either (non-religious), but it's not like I've really been practicing lately. I got really depressed when I stopped hearing any form of communication from my spirit companions. It really made me question if everything was all in my head or not. I think my connection to everything is just really weak right now and damaged. I wasn't put on any medication that would cause me to stop hearing voices if they weren't real... even typing that out sounds crazy. I can tell that a couple of them are still around, just not really active and I wonder if it's because I haven't been practicing or leaving offerings. It did, however, line up with me starting to attend church, which is a little bit creepy. I wonder if activity would start back up if I set up an altar and left offerings again. I don't have anything set up at all right now and that could be a big reason why.

I was supposed to go grocery shopping today, but Michael never replied to me until late at night and then immediately went offline again. I hope he can take me to my appointment tomorrow still. The only thing I did manage to get done today was making a shopping list.

This week was far from my worst, but it was still pretty bad. I ate poorly, cared for myself very little, binge watched shows on netflix, and spent hours playing games and scrolling through social media. That's how most of my days this week have gone. It's a bit sad.

My roommate's partner signed up for stitchfix through me and ended up buying some of the cool clothes she got sent, so I got credit on my account- $112! If anyone wants to try it (It's free to try it and return things) my link is here.

I'm starting to think about what I want for my upcoming birthday- I'll be turning 30 and I'm going to post my amazon wish list link around once I get it sorted. That's one of my goals to complete this week. Get rid of old stuff and dead links and remove anything not family friendly lmao

I'm feeling very tired now so I'm going to sleep before my appointment tomorrow.... I really hope Michael remembers...

Written by iyazo

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Posted On Dec 21, 2020

Yeah I'm not religious either, it just didn't make any sense to me when I read the bible and heard the stories growing up. They taught that Adam and Eve were factually the first humans in my elementary school, and that all the other bible stories were fact! Only in the United States was secularism the default in schools with religion being optional, but in other countries they actually teach religion as literal fact.

Posted On Dec 22, 2020

@JustMegawatt I don't mind religion, but I don't take any of it as straight facts. That's wild they can teach that way elsewhere! Where did you go to school if you don't mind me asking?

Posted On Dec 22, 2020

@iyazo I went to a school in Fiji that taught those things as literal fact, don't remember what it was called. "This is the history of the world and how humans came to be" sort of deal

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