Dec. 20, 2020

Took Family Photos, What I Do Normally Without Games

8:02 AM (of Monday, December 21st 2020)

Today is Sunday, December 20th 2020 and it was a normal Sunday. I had an extremely elated dopamine period of bliss yesterday where I spent 16 hours playing games, pretty much the whole day. It was soooooo much fun. I think it was a mistake, because nothing can compare to that much joy. Nothing. There are other activities that are extremely enjoyable for a brief moment such as, well you know, but this was 16 hours of pure bliss. Whew! I felt high for 16 hours straight.

It was a mistake because real life can't compare to that at all. Now I have to do some sort of entertainment fasting in order to feel normal again. This is what I spent my time on today:

  • Physical 0:21
  • Beat Saber 0:21
  • Intermediary 7:27
  • Eating 0:52
  • Sleeping 6:33
  • Pooping 0:02
  • Organization 0:51
  • Journal 0:47
  • Pictures for the Day 0:04
  • Unproductive 14:33
  • Browsing 9:37
  • Anime 4:56
  • Social Media 0:48
  • Habitica 0:48

Yeah if it wasn't video games, I guess, I'd be spending time just browsing the Internet or watching some anime. I saw Rokka of the Six Braves again today, my second time watching it. I've seen several series already this year in my 2nd or 3rd time rewatching because I felt bored. Which is weird, because I had homework I could have studied for instead. I should have chosen homework over those activities.

The entire day was normal. I don't think anything remarkable happened except my mom wanted to do a photo shoot that night with all the Christmas decorations we had up. Another weird thing is that every time we take a photoshoot, it feels like the "present" but when I look at my photos, they were all in the past, several years in the past, but they felt so much like "right here right now" at the time and the future couldn't even exist. The future seemed distant, but we're already through it now.

If I could go back in time and redo some actions, I would. I think I've said that every year. No doubt a future version of me would say the same thing about today, right now, 2020. What would I have done differently? I'm doing everything as best as I can right now. I'm making the best decisions I think I'm making. What more can I do, future me? I'd love to do those things, just tell me!!

Anyway that was my day today. Today passed by instantaneously.

Written by JustMegawatt

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Posted On Dec 22, 2020

I couldn't imagine entertainment fasting....I feel like I'd have nothing left. Even though you let some things slide today I commend your strict lifestyle.

Posted On Dec 22, 2020

@iyazo My lifestyle isn't strict to me XD. I usually spend 8+ hours doing unproductive activities such as browsing the Internet, watching anime, reading manga, watching random videos, etc. Until that can be brought down to under 2 hours a day, it's not very strict :\

Posted On Dec 23, 2020

@JustMegawatt I guess it just seems that way from your blogging. Is that ultimately your goal, under 2hrs?

Posted On Dec 23, 2020

@iyazo From my blogging and timelogs, I am usually productive for the first 2 hours of the morning and work, but after 5 PM I'm a mess with discipline, doing things I don't want to do (manga, anime, videos, porn etc), when I could be doing other things (exercising, working on projects, organizing things, etc).

If it were possible to have 2 hours of unproductive time in one day, that would feel like one of the most accomplished days I've lived.

Posted On Dec 24, 2020

@JustMegawatt I'm the same way, I hit the ground running in the morning but then lose steam later on. With ADHD sometimes I'm just too scatterbrained and discipline becomes really difficult

Yeah that would be an amazingly busy day!

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