5:44 AM Why do I always only get 5-6 hours of sleep? There’s nothing here to wake me up, and yet I still wake up after just 5-6 hours of sleep. I honestly want to sleep longer, at least 8 hours, heck I would probably be happy with 7 hours, but I always wake up earlier than that. I’m not sure if I s...
11:20 AM Alright I’m stuck in a predicament right now. It actually should be a really simple decision. Meh. So I weighed 202.5 pounds this morning, which is good. I have been going up and down the 202 to 205 range the past two weeks or so. My weight chart literally looks like a roller coaster ride,...
9:27 PM I'm not feeling that great right now. I just came back from walking outside for around 20 minutes and also playing Beat Saber for around 20 minutes. It's been over a year since I started playing Beat Saber, and I just played Origins on Expert+, it's easy to me now. I remember last year sayi...
8:15 PM I wonder where all my time goes? It’s not like I’m not doing anything the whole day, I am actively doing things the entire day. It is so strange, like what am I doing every day that makes the time pass by so quickly without me even noticing? What I remember from today is that this morning ...
8:15 AM (of Saturday, November 20th 2021) Today is Friday, November 19th 2021 and I mainly worked on music today. I did reply to some emails at work and did a little bit of work, but not as much as I could have. I mainly focused on music today. I remember what happened yesterday (Thursday) now, I r...
Why does everyone have to just blow smoke up my ass and lie to me that about that I am capable at anything. Why do I always have to find out that the people I my life have no belief in me from hearing them talk about me not to me. Why were none of the previous attempts successful, why am I not alrea...
8:04 AM (of Saturday, November 20th 2021) Today is Thursday, November 18th 2021 and it was another good day today. I don't remember much exactly of what I did today, because I'm writing this entry two days in the future and all my days are so similarly lived it's hard to recall what was different a...
6:57 AM (of Thursday, November 18th 2021) Today is Wednesday, November 17th 2021 and it was a good day today. I had my Spanish lessons in the morning and I cleaned up my home and took pictures. I took out the trash, washed the dishes, cleaned up my room, and did a bunch of other chores. It was nice...
So our recollection is finally finished. Now I am ruminating everything that had happened earlier. I feel like I said something wrong, maybe I could’ve said something better. I should’ve just said what I’ve written, I shouldn’t have added more information. I overshared again. Honestly, I don’t reall...
10:45 PM (of Wednesday, November 17th 2021) Today is Tuesday, November 16th 2021 and I had another great day today. I have been feeling phenomenal today and yesterday (Monday) and things are just going well. I had my tutoring session with my Spanish tutor for the first time in 2 days today, because...
Well, it's been four days without my meds. They should have started to work their way out of my system. I'm not sure if there's been any change. I have no idea what to tell my doctor. I thought maybe at first she was right and the mood stabilizer was the cause of the excessive restlessness and anxie...
12:37 AM (of Wednesday, November 17th 2021) Today is Monday, November 15th 2021 and I had no electricity at home since last night, and didn't have it when I woke up today either. I told my boss that I didn't have any electricity (and therefore no Internet either) and took the entire day off work. T...