Yesterday one of the things Scott said to me seriously in between bouts of road rage that he has stage 2 lung cancer and he doesn't want to treat it. He told me this while holding a lit cigarette. I guess that might explain a little why he's so intent on getting to me and giving me free stuff for sp...
I didn't make an entry yesterday and almost didn't write one tonight. There just wasn't much going on this weekend. About the most exciting thing was one of my cats attacking me and nearly breaking half the fingers in my hand. I had no idea a ten pound house cat could be that powerful. We have thr...
My first entry. I just woke up. Signing up because of a Habitica site challenge on journalling. Easier to type than hold a pen due to pain.
Today passed relatively quickly. I woke up later than I intended and called Scott. I again told him to just come pick me up at my house and since it was raining he agreed. He had me reach down the side of the seat to grab the phone he was going to give me. I don't know why he has a bunch of burner p...
I saw my primary care doctor today to discuss continuing issues. Not sure what I think of this doctor. She's been my husband's doctor since we moved here ten years ago, but I've only seen her a couple times. Every time I've felt rushed and unable to actually ask any questions about my health. I mis...
I didn't end up going to meet Scott. For some reason he was insistent on picking me up off the street and I was like just pick me up at my house?? so yeah, I didn't go because he wouldn't do that and that seemed strange to me. Like no one would really give a shit if I disappeared, but this guy is ju...
I finally sucked it up and just opened the app for the clinic I go to. You can do a lot of the appointment making online once you've established care. Unfortunately, the only option for my shrink is a video conference which has been killing my anxiety and making me avoid even attempting to make an a...
Today passed too quickly with myself getting too little done. I really need to work on my time management. I have a really poor sense of time though so it's difficult for me. If I like something enough I will keep doing it until I physically can't anymore. I guess that's how my workout went this mor...
Been trying for nearly an hour to get myself to make an entry. Just not in the mood. Today is just more of the same. Tired all day, barely make it through to 2pm then take a nap that does nothing to alleviate my exhaustion only to barely make it until now. My feet are swelled up and hurt so much. I...
I just realized that when my paycheck is delayed, I lose interest in doing work. I really feel demotivated that I just want to lie down and contemplate life. I've stopped being heroic and push through no matter what. I have numerous colleagues who have left this year, I think the biggest reason...
Today did not go as well as yesterday. I did not want to get up and laid in bed until my alarm was about to go off. Then I just stared at my phone for fifteen minutes before going downstairs, hoping I'd feel more awake. I didn't. That meant I didn't really have time to clean the kitchen. I did manag...
Today wasn't anything special. I feel like most of what I did was stare at a screen or the ceiling or walls and space out. I stayed in my room all day aside from getting something to eat for breakfast and dinner. I ate pretty well and just went and grabbed some snacks for later. I haven't been feeli...