I'm sad this morning because I couldn't stay up to do the Midnight Write-In like I traditionally do for NaNoWriMo. And this year, I didn't even have to go anywhere because it's all virtual. I didn't even make it to midnight and went to sleep around 11:30pm. I hate that my chronic illness is like thi...
Not much really happening here. My three daughters made a bunch of Halloween-themed snacks yesterday for a party, but they didn't start until 3pm and didn't finish until like 7. And everyone downstairs was snacking as they made the so no one wanted to actually eat any of the stuff. I took one or two...
IT'S HALLOWEEN! fuck yeah. This is my favorite time of year. Anyways, yesterday I got a facial, this was my first time outside in what? 8? months. Don't worry, precautions were taken, like masks, gloves, temp checks, frequent hand washing and disinfecting, etc. The point is, I got some plant peel a...
The days just drag on. And they're all the same, filled with this dread I can't put a finger on and depression that leaves me disinterested in doing anything. I think to myself, maybe I'll watch this show that's normally one of my favorites, then think, "meh." And end up doing nothing. Yesterday, ...
This depression is killing me. And there are so many different things wrong with me (physically and mentally), I'm not sure what's causing the depression or if the depression is just its own thing or if it's causing other symptoms like the fatigue. It's all so confusing. I don't know what to do anym...
An update - it started raining and I had to close my window. I'm lucky to have three windows put together right next to my bed. I can work on my bed and look out the windows at the dancing leaves. Well, they're running now, not really dancing in circles anymore. Sometimes I dream of my perfect hom...
Hurricane approaching today!! I LOVE this type of weather. It spooked my cat though poor thing. I had to bring in all the Halloween decorations and my pride flag, which I think I'm going to have to throw away, it's been releasing plastic threads, which can hurt birds :( Anyways, I'm writing this w...
The power cut out today. Some kid on my street ran outside and started yelling "freedom!" I got to finish my college essay though - I sent it to my teacher to help me get a stronger conclusion, but I'm basically done! It's raining right now but I'm going to go volunteer at my school in two-ish hours...
And now my depression is just worse. The other day, I asked my husband to pick up some toilet paper on his way home because we were down to won roll, and I figured it would hold us over until we could get to Costco later this week as we haven't done our shopping yet only to be told there's no money ...
Weed isn't supposed to be addictive, but I definitely notice when it's not in my system anymore and it makes me antsy. I ran out yesterday (again) and spent all day trying to distract myself by doing anything else, but I can't stop thinking about the pain I'm in and how I would rather be asleep righ...
I wrote a letter to my friend yesterday! I used my new golden sealing wax to stamp it, which was fun. I'm thinking of sending her another letter soon, if only just to talk about the pitiful state of politics in this country. That is to say - the election is coming up soon and I'm scared it's going t...
For almost two weeks, my neighbors have been looking out for me outside their window, wondering if I am really "doing my homeworks". I don't know why I have to prove myself that I am doing my homeworks just because my parents are not around. They thought I'm not doing my homeworks just because I don...