I hung out with Tony on Saturday. He helped me get to the dispensary and mailed a package for me today on his way to work. He even did my laundry for me because I admitted that I was too afraid to come downstairs. He's very understanding. It was nice to just sit and smoke and watch Grace and Frankie...
A small standard survey: 1. What particular activities or category of activities did you spend the most time on? Daily stuffWorkStudyEnergy-saving and enterprise audit (studying process too)2. What surprised you about your statistics this week? Is there anything that you would like to chan...
True confidenceTrue confidence comes from taking action and with your inner beliefs telling you that you will succeedWays to get true confidence Meditate but not up to the point to where it feels like a chore: before u hop in a meditation session ask yourself, what am I meditating for and then hop i...
I messaged Michael on facebook this morning about possibly helping me run some errands that I need to do to work on my upcoming move. He flat out told me (even though he has no involvement) that I had burnt that bridge and I needed professional help. Like yeah thanks, where the fuck do you think you...
I stayed up until 8am this morning reading through listings looking for roommates or an apartment. Nothing is within my price range, even if I spent all of the money I earn on rent alone... It's really scary and disheartening. After that I slept for nearly the whole day. I'm too depressed to start g...
The ship loomed in the dark abyss the indefinable vacuum of deep space. My left eyebrow raised and thoughtful consternation. Gently grinding my molars eyes glazed over, knuckles white The skin of my neck pulled taut, pup tents housing a flood of iron-deficient blood, screaming towards the frontal co...
8:26 AM (of Friday, March 26th 2021) Today is Wednesday, March 24th 2021 and it was another normal work day today. I fixed some issues here and there, got a few things done, but overall not that much. I did some strength exercises today of course, and I played Beat Saber for several hours today. I...
It is already night as I write this entry. My sleeping schedule is really messed up. I pretty ate a big snack this afternoon and felt sleepy afterwards. While I'm writing on my physical journal, I'm listening to YOASOBI's song Gunjo. This song kind of resonates with me, as it speaks about lack of co...
10:19 PM (of Wednesday, March 24th 2021) Today is Tuesday, March 23rd 2021 and it was a regular work day today, I worked from home as always. 7:42 AM (of Friday, March 26th 2021) Okay it's still Tuesday, March 23rd 2021 today, but it's been a few days that I'm writing this entry. Now I don't reme...
I went back to the hospital. I couldn't deny that I was falling apart completely. I hadn't eaten in nearly a week and could no longer stomach water, let alone all of the medication I'm on. It was a good move. My weight was almost all the way back down to 100lbs. I stayed there for 10 days. The group...
5:51 AM (of Tuesday, March 23rd 2021) Today is Monday, March 22nd 2021 and it's the first workday of the week. In the morning I played Beat Saber for about an hour, and then washed the dishes which was quick to do. I cooked up some beans and rice and played Secrets of Grindea in the meantime while ...
Esse é o começo. O começo de tudo. Nem sei se vou realmente usar isso, mas eu não me importo, eu só quero escrever.