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Illness Update

It's been a month since I've posted in this journal. Mostly because things have been going okay for once. I feel stable for the first time in years thanks to the Vraylar I take. Once it was increased to 3mg/day, it boosted my mood enough that I no longer feel depressed all of the time, and on the oc...

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New Provider Update

So I had my appointment with my new provider the other day. She was nice enough and listened to what I was saying. It's weird going back to having a nurse monitor my meds after having a full MD on the case for the last two years. I'm back to having my provider need to consult supervisors to approv...

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Update on the Provider Hunt

Since my old doctor up and moved away rather suddenly and with almost no warning last month, I've been on a somewhat frantic search to find someone new to monitor my medication for me because going off my meds is not something I'm interested in at the moment. Things have been frustrating because my ...

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Trying to Stay Calm with GAD

It's been two weeks since my last appointment when I found out my doctor is moving away. Two weeks since I realized how limiting my insurance options are. It's been one week since I got back on my Ativan to help me sleep at night. One week of still waking in the middle of the night and not being a...

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Finally Slept through the Night

After a week of tossing and turning and waking up without being able to fall back asleep, I finally slept through the night again. That's because I got my meds filled yesterday so I'm back on my Ativan at night. I was kind of afraid it wasn't going to work anymore after my experiences the last week...

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Harder Than I Thought

Finding a new doctor is so much harder than I thought. This new insurance has so fewer options than our old one. Of course, it does. The company my husband worked for finds the cheapest thing they can. Cheaper means fewer options always. Two years ago they switched to only CVS pharmacies. Yeah, my m...

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Changing Doctors Again

So, I had an appointment today. I've been nervous about this all weekend because I get nervous over everything. It had been about five weeks since I talked to my shrink, and in the meantime, I had run out of my Ativan but figured it was only a couple of days without it before the appointment so I co...

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Dealing with Medication Issues

Hello, all. It's been a while since I updated. I guess going off my meds for a bit to test something was not good for me. I just kind of stopped doing my journal entries and drifted for a while after that. I did eventually get back on them and got it sorted out, but now I'm back in a similar spot. ...

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Four Days Off My Meds

Well, it's been four days without my meds. They should have started to work their way out of my system. I'm not sure if there's been any change. I have no idea what to tell my doctor. I thought maybe at first she was right and the mood stabilizer was the cause of the excessive restlessness and anxie...

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Appointment Update

I had another appointment today. It went well. I managed to keep my anxiety under control with the help of a pill and some mental gymnastics. My doctor thinks my extreme restlessness (I described it to my husband the other day as feeling like I have Restless Leg Syndrome but all over my body and a...

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NaNoWriMo Update and Not Sick Anymore

So, NaNoWriMo is going well. If you don't know, NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month where you challenge yourself to write a 50k-word novel in 30 days. This is my 17th year participating. I've won 7 or 8 times, I think. The last time I won was in 2017 which was right before the chronic fatigue ...

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And Just When Things Seemed Okay

I had a pretty good morning. My cold is almost completely gone. I'm a little more tired than normal, but otherwise almost back to how things were. I had a great first day of NaNoWriMo with nearly 3,000 words written between midnight and around 1pm. Dinner turned out halfway decent even though I thou...

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