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Last Couple Days

(Apparently this didn't post when I originally wrote it. Thankfully, I copy/pasted it somewhere else.) Well, I couldn't update the last couple days because of keyboard issues. By the time I could get the keys working, I was just too exhausted to put in the mental effort to make an entry. Which all r...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 12, 2020

Not Sleeping Well

Not sure what it is. My anxiety should be getting better with the elections pretty much decided, but instead it's worse. I'm worried about money and Christmas again. We had no gifts last year. Can you imagine being nine and waking up to nothing under the tree? Its heartbreaking. Technically he had o...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 8, 2020

Stupid Keyboard

I didn't get to make an entry yesterday because I could not get my keys working for anything. I would do all of my usual tricks in Notepad or my journal on 4thewords only to have them immediately stop working when I switched to a different tab. Or they'd work fine for one or two letters then stop wo...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 7, 2020

First Night on New Meds

Look the first dose of lithium last night. So far no side effects that I can tell. With the way my life is and the way 2020 is going, I just kind of expected something catastrophic to happen because everything sucks. But so far, things are just like they always are. My alarm went off at 7am, and I d...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 5, 2020

Appointment Update

This morning was a bit stressful between election results and having a virtual doctor appointment. I forgot to take an anxiety pill before starting the appointment and then in the middle of it, the doctor's feed cut out, and I didn't know what to do. I wasn't sure if she would come back, and we neve...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 4, 2020

Not Getting Anything Done

I had planned to get my NaNo writing done in the morning while the 10yo does his zoom classes, but so far that hasn't happened. Mostly because my keyboard is messed up. Several very important keys (W,S and X mainly) usually don't work when I first warm the laptop up. No amount of banging on them wil...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 2, 2020

Sad

I'm sad this morning because I couldn't stay up to do the Midnight Write-In like I traditionally do for NaNoWriMo. And this year, I didn't even have to go anywhere because it's all virtual. I didn't even make it to midnight and went to sleep around 11:30pm. I hate that my chronic illness is like thi...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Nov. 1, 2020

Happy Halloween, I Guess

Not much really happening here. My three daughters made a bunch of Halloween-themed snacks yesterday for a party, but they didn't start until 3pm and didn't finish until like 7. And everyone downstairs was snacking as they made the so no one wanted to actually eat any of the stuff. I took one or two...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Oct. 31, 2020

Just Trying to Get Through Another Day

The days just drag on. And they're all the same, filled with this dread I can't put a finger on and depression that leaves me disinterested in doing anything. I think to myself, maybe I'll watch this show that's normally one of my favorites, then think, "meh." And end up doing nothing. Yesterday, ...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Oct. 30, 2020

Just So Tired

This depression is killing me. And there are so many different things wrong with me (physically and mentally), I'm not sure what's causing the depression or if the depression is just its own thing or if it's causing other symptoms like the fatigue. It's all so confusing. I don't know what to do anym...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Oct. 29, 2020

Depression Worse

And now my depression is just worse. The other day, I asked my husband to pick up some toilet paper on his way home because we were down to won roll, and I figured it would hold us over until we could get to Costco later this week as we haven't done our shopping yet only to be told there's no money ...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Oct. 28, 2020

Just Depressed

I didn't make an entry yesterday because all I could think to write was how depressed I was. Well not much has changed since yesterday. I don't even want to get out of bed and ended up "sleeping" half the day and went to bed early because there seemed to be no more point in staying awake since I was...

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justanotherjen (Lvl. 36) - Oct. 26, 2020

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