There was a time when I was a brilliant software engineer. It was my pride. My obsession. I didn't care about money or approval, I just wanted to spend all day mastering my craft. Nerdy long before it was cool. But when I broke my wrist 3 years ago, I got some nerve damage which is getting worse ov...
Rare footage of me leaving the house before noon on a non-office, non-raid day. We’re having a winter storm this afternoon, so I figured I’d better take my daily walk before the rush. Serious business. It’s 30 degrees right now, but it’s supposed to plunge to -8 overnight. The office is officially c...
How many times have I tried to escape? Too many. But now I am free, and relearning how to exist. It is a constant struggle. A joyous, merry, difficult struggle. And I would not trade it for anything. As I type this, I am being pursued. My familiar cage awaits. 72 hours this time; a new record. Was...
A boy warrior quietly sits down for dinner, weapon strapped to his shoulder. Calm, but resolute. "Why so stiff?" Asks the father. He responds "Because even if I win out here...", he gestures to the kingdom, "They only strike within imagination. Fortunately that is the realm in which my weapon ...
Most often than not we tend to preach the things we learn that has help us, But we are forgetting something! We are forgetting that the reason we learn those skills was because we are seeking it, and that is why we fully understand what ever it is that we learn, it won't be the same to those who we ...
We tend to be to harsh on our self when we don't meet our goals and it's a good thing but at the same time we have to acknowledge that we are only human we get tired we get burnt out and need to recharge.
SO MUCH POOR PITIFUL ME! Just glancing back over my last few entries (some of which I kept private, so this may seem an odd entry out of full context), ugh! I really must start putting more effort into re-presenting situations and intentions (of others) to myself in a more positive light. Things ha...
Love is seeing a flower and having this feeling of excitement. Love is feeling of wanting to give grace to the world. Love is wanting to protect those, who can't protect them selves. Love is empathy, sympathy, and charity. Love is wanting good thing to other people regardless.
So Papa Bear decides to inform me AFTER I go shopping, that we're hemorrhaging money. *le sigh* well, this morning, I think we will return the enormous $7 bag of raisins, in exchange for a bag of chips and some hummus to take to the in-law's today. I will be taking over the bills, because I do SO m...
In life unexpected things happen, but our job is to keep moving forward. Not relive yesterdays pain. or the fear of tomorrow. to fully live in the moment means letting go of past hurt or fear of the future.
So, hi. I have completely forgotten about the online diary, I think it will do me good to write a little bit about the last few days. Or just more in general. So, a couple of days ago, I felt really really really bad. I had a random fight with my girlfriend, we usually fight about the little annoy...
You could leave life right not let that determine what we do, say and think! ~ Marcus Aurelius. We tent to live life worried about yesterday, and anxious about tomorrow. When all of our power is right HERE RIGHT NOW! NOW we can do one little thing to change the trajectory of tomorrow. NOW we can w...