A few minutes until ten as I begin, and I‘m frankly just glad the day is over. I woke up far too early. Five in the morning! The roosters hadn’t even started crowing yet! I definitely wasn’t in any condition to work, much less think very properly yet, so I simply spent some time relaxing with my ear...
Today will be a chill day. Which I'm fine with because I start college in 2 days so I need all the relaxing I can get. And tonight we will be binge watching movies and eating pizza for dinner while we are binge watching movies.
After about a week of feeling pretty good and having more energy, I'm back to just sitting around and spending half the day fighting to stay awake. I hate this. I tried not to hope and dream, but after a week straight of feeling better, I really thought the meds were working. Then yesterday, I could...
2020/08/21 Friday 06:30: on the way to school. The sky is red/orange and blue. And guess what - to my surprise There's a rainbow!! I don't see rain or direct sun. At first it looked like tuere was a line in the sky that seperates it a bit. But even if the colour is more red, i think It's a rainbow....
I'm feeling so overwhelmed. I made more phone calls today and took down more information. I made copies of my medication and contacts lists just in case... One of the people helping me look into resources has unfortunately found nothing either. I feel so lost. There's really nowhere for me to go fro...
nice words eudaemonia: conducive to happiness mauve: of a pale purple color liminal: of, relating to, or situated at a sensory threshold : barely perceptible or capable of eliciting a response : of, relating to, or being an intermediate state, phase, or condition superfluous:...
I missed a couple of days with recording down my journal due to moving. So it’s been a very busy few days. The movers came at 8 am and had everything packed up by 2 or 3 pm. They finished unpacking at the new house at around 2 am. It was a very long day. The following day was a whole lot of cleaning...
Today I'm going to my Mom's house when she gets done with work. Also not counting today I have 3 days until I start my first year of college. I'm really nervous to start college and I don't know how I feel about it all being online but oh well that's not my choice. I just need to believe in myself t...
Yesterday was technically moving day for me. I moved most of my stuff into a larger storage unit and now all that I have at the apartment with me are the essentials and a few comfort items. I feel really alone right now. The emptiness and silence of being alone here are getting to me. I guess when t...
Today wasn't a good day. I think I might have messed things up by forgetting my mood stabilizer last night. I'm supposed to take it with dinner, but since we normally eat dinner around 5pm, the pills are causing me to be drowsy by 9 or 10pm and I don't like it. So I decided I would experiment with ...
2020/08/20 Thursday 12:32: We had VWL but i didn't have the book because the teacher wasn't there and i didn't know the one we had would do that. Someone made a photo and sent it into the class Group so we could work. Math was okay but we had to go out for some time to mrs. Schubert for the uh... ...
8/18 Finally decided to invest in fast travel. Made a jungle outpost (with pylon) and a dungeon outpost (to get the forest pylon, which I placed in town). I also got a mimic minion, which keeps japing me because I keep thinking I see a chest and it's literally my own minion. But it's worth it becau...