It's Kan's birthday. Happy birthday, Kan! We hoped to give him the gift of a Shiva clear, but it didn't quite happen. On our best run we got most of the way through Wyrm's Lament 2 before I messed up third red (I was running all over the dragonhead and it didn't register. newbie later explained you ...
Woken up three or four times for meds and breakfast too early, then had to wait like 20 minutes to even get all of my meds. Thank goodness the doxycycline wasn't actually removed. I still feel tired and doped up from the trazodone and I hate it and can't wait until my real doctors can fix it again. ...
Not much to report today. I went to Jo-Ann's to look for the bright green yarn I need for the chevron blanket, but they didn't have it either. Honestly even if I do find the yarn somewhere, the company has probably changed the dye lot. I saw some skeins for the blanket I'm currently finishing up, an...
10:55 PM Today was another day in which I didn't have much to do. It was a workout day though so I made sure to do that. It was fun and easy this morning, working out was the first thing I did. I just did the goblet squats first thing, and I hated them so much. But I did them so easily since I was ...
I slept through breakfast, the two morning groups, and lunch. The trazodone being doubled made me feel drugged and exhausted. The staff all treat me differently now that I self harmed and they're very rude, especially the nurses. I met with a different psychiatrist because mine was out and explained...
3:17 PM (of Sunday, May 23rd 2021) Today is Saturday, May 22nd 2021. As an effect of not eating anything the whole day yesterday, and also having a lack of water because the water I was drinking had a really strong aftertaste, like extremely strong moldy metallic tasting aftertaste, that I also did...
This week was finals week, and I'm very relieved to have gotten through it! I feel so calm and relaxed now that this semester is all done, I don't even care what my grades are. Yesterday evening I went to the crafts store to sort of celebrate by buying a couple skeins of yarn for a blanket, but un...
El trabajo y la familia absorben toda mi vida. Los fines de semana cuando las labores domésticas me lo permiten, solo me aburro y pienso en que debería estar haciendo "otra cosa". No se qué es esa otra cosa. Solo sé que no la estoy haciendo. Es duro tener esta ansiedad. De lunes a viernes duermo una...
I was woken up by a medical doctor(?) asking me about my medications while I was still sleeping, so I forgot to mention important things like I recently had MRSA and 3 surgeries, because I was sleep-talking. I tried getting up to track them down, but they left. I couldn't get back to sleep, so I wen...
7:02 AM (of Saturday, May 22nd 2021) Today is Friday May 21st, 2021. It happens to be the 21st day of the 21st week of the 21st year of the 21st century. This morning was extremely productive for me. I woke up, threw out the trash, cleaned up the kitchen, I did my strength workouts this morning whi...
Bare with me as I begin to journal my time spent at the behavioral health hospital as my journal isn't the neatest and has pages pushed in between for each day, so there's a depth to it which can't really be expressed in a digital way... These journal entries have been modified to fit your screen. ...
In the middle of the night last night they decided to give me an actual bed because they wanted to have an alarm on it so I don't get up. Jokes on them because they keep forgetting to turn the alarm back on, and now I have a regular hospital bed. They eventually turned on the alarm and while waiting...