Today wasn't anything special. I feel like most of what I did was stare at a screen or the ceiling or walls and space out. I stayed in my room all day aside from getting something to eat for breakfast and dinner. I ate pretty well and just went and grabbed some snacks for later. I haven't been feeli...
tw: sex, sw positive discussion, honestly it's all lewd you should probably just see yourself out, you've walked into the nasty I'm back in business, baby. Yeah I'm gonna make it big and live my life however the fuck I want...Why? Because "where exactly am I gonna go? To double hell?" I'll just k...
I'm worn out, but I don't feel like I did much today. I've been busy, mentally, though. Between just the two youngest kids, it looks like I'm going to have to be on top of school stuff from 7:50am until around 4:30pm. The 10yo has his school from 8am to 10am then has independent work that usually ...
(because we can't let the new year hog all the resolutions) 1. Go outside every day. Every evening, my phone faithfully gives me a notification about the next day's weather, which I appreciate. I like the implication that this is relevant news for me. Back in March I'd take a balcony walk ever...
I'm back from the hospital. I feel a bit more prepared this time, so that's good. My psychiatrist and therapist actually said to me today that I should *really* consider getting another pet, since grief over the loss of my pets has been a huge factor in my depression this year. I definitely will nev...
Eventful start of the week. Bad dreams last night. Saw that person I wanted to avoid in my dreams again. I was avoiding her again. I wondered why she was invading my "space", they're places you wouldn't expect her to be. Then my "sex" dreams are disgusting. My perversion is leaking through my dreams...
"Call me naive," said numbers, "a foolish dreamer, but I really thought we were going to start raid within half an hour of our scheduled time." Everyone except Kan had checked in by 1:03, and Kan was active on discord, so numbers pinged him: "Kanzaris, you around too?" Kan did not respond and, sho...
Most days of the year are, unremarkable. They begin and they end with no lasting memoreis made in between. Most days have no impact on the cours of a life.... May 23 was a Wenesday.... If Tom have learned anything it was that you cant describe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. CO...
I slept in to start with. First woke up around 7-something and decided to just go back to bed because it's the weekend. Finally got up around 8:30am which is super late for me lately. I noticed right away that my feet weren't as swelled as they have been. The bath last night seemed to help (the swel...
That's how it feels right now. I've been so depressed, and it just keeps getting worse. I still manage to get up early in the morning (not that I have a choice during the week), but by the time my son's classes are over, I can't stay awake anymore. Even today, after getting up later than usual, I wa...
Happy birthday to me! (yesterday) No office party this year; oh well. Honestly I prefer other people's birthday parties to my own. I'm not the center of attention but still get cake. My roommate said he'd make me dinner for my birthday. Then he fell asleep. By 8 pm, he still hadn't woken up and ...
I'm a little tired. Well, tomorrow's Saturday. I really like Druidawn, I've realized. Also, Michael's doing Druidawn! Well, not in my group, but he's still doing it. Today we played Minecraft with Simon and Gabe. He start a new realm, thank goodness, but it's still called LeahcimLand. It's okay s...