Today went a little better than expected. I hadn't heard from Scott again yet (my friend who is supposedly giving me rides to run errands), but I did receive a reply from someone I contacted about a room. Here is something I wrote on facebook earlier, for convenience's sake. Trying not to get my ho...
I try to read these aloud every day to make me strong! RHAA!! My mind is calm All is well in my life I Am Motivated and Energized I wake up today with strength in my heart and clarity in my mind I take it easy I speak with Confidence and calm assurance I am successful in whatever I do I am a Man of ...
I hung out with Tony on Saturday. He helped me get to the dispensary and mailed a package for me today on his way to work. He even did my laundry for me because I admitted that I was too afraid to come downstairs. He's very understanding. It was nice to just sit and smoke and watch Grace and Frankie...
A small standard survey: 1. What particular activities or category of activities did you spend the most time on? Daily stuffWorkStudyEnergy-saving and enterprise audit (studying process too)2. What surprised you about your statistics this week? Is there anything that you would like to chan...
True confidenceTrue confidence comes from taking action and with your inner beliefs telling you that you will succeedWays to get true confidence Meditate but not up to the point to where it feels like a chore: before u hop in a meditation session ask yourself, what am I meditating for and then hop i...
I messaged Michael on facebook this morning about possibly helping me run some errands that I need to do to work on my upcoming move. He flat out told me (even though he has no involvement) that I had burnt that bridge and I needed professional help. Like yeah thanks, where the fuck do you think you...
I stayed up until 8am this morning reading through listings looking for roommates or an apartment. Nothing is within my price range, even if I spent all of the money I earn on rent alone... It's really scary and disheartening. After that I slept for nearly the whole day. I'm too depressed to start g...
The ship loomed in the dark abyss the indefinable vacuum of deep space. My left eyebrow raised and thoughtful consternation. Gently grinding my molars eyes glazed over, knuckles white The skin of my neck pulled taut, pup tents housing a flood of iron-deficient blood, screaming towards the frontal co...
It is already night as I write this entry. My sleeping schedule is really messed up. I pretty ate a big snack this afternoon and felt sleepy afterwards. While I'm writing on my physical journal, I'm listening to YOASOBI's song Gunjo. This song kind of resonates with me, as it speaks about lack of co...
I went back to the hospital. I couldn't deny that I was falling apart completely. I hadn't eaten in nearly a week and could no longer stomach water, let alone all of the medication I'm on. It was a good move. My weight was almost all the way back down to 100lbs. I stayed there for 10 days. The group...
Esse é o começo. O começo de tudo. Nem sei se vou realmente usar isso, mas eu não me importo, eu só quero escrever.
One of my teacher emailed me last Friday about my unsubmitted assignment. She was requiring me to have an excuse letter signed by my parents explaining why I wasn't able to comply with the said requirement, in order to accept my late homework. I didn't have a valid reason because I literally did my ...