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18,000 Steps, Went To Mall, Bought $1200 Worth of Stuff

8:23 PM Today was one of the best days of my life. I felt so fantastic and alive throughout the entirety of the day. Seriously. I had no cares in the world, I had an overflowing amount of energy, and I felt so happy and at peace with everything. I still feel that way right now, I just feel so relax...

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JustMegawatt (Lvl. 81) - April 11, 2021

Lost, Continue

Yesterday when I wasn't feeling so well I received a series of strange texts from my friend Scott. I think at one point there were like 7 in a row because I was either getting sick or fell back asleep, but it was all worrying stuff like "I'm sorry," "I gotta go" and skull emojis. I finally replied b...

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iyazo (Lvl. 31) - April 11, 2021

The Hopeless Feeling of Packing Your Life Away

The worst combination is feeling sick while hungry. I haven't been able to eat, though I can mostly manage to keep down my pills and water again which is good. The trick was waiting until my ambien kicked in a little bit, making me more tired and hungry, and then I would just eat as much trail mix a...

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iyazo (Lvl. 31) - April 10, 2021

Streaks Removed, To Dos Improved and Given Daily Repeat Ability

Website Update - April 10, 2021

The Streaks feature of the Planner has been removed and replaced with To Dos being given the daily repeat feature. Now you can mark a To Do as being able to repeat daily, so that you can check it off today and when you log in again tomorrow (12:00 AM in your chosen timezone), it will be available to...

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04/10/2021 - Café Dreams

Why does having your own café always sound like such a dream? It's like a wanting-your-own-business starter pack. Truthfully, I also want my own café. It's such a silly dream, I know. Everyone wants their own café, how would I compete? Well the thing is, I don't want to compete haha. It's just a sil...

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marrccm (Lvl. 21) - April 10, 2021

Legwork

Today I felt incredibly sick. I was dry heaving, not having anything in my stomach at all. I guess I really am sick. Either from food poisoning or stress. I'm at a point where my energy and stamina is so incredibly low and moving around too much makes me feel ill. I can't run out my time here like t...

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iyazo (Lvl. 31) - April 9, 2021

Sang Songs, Friday

10:47 PM Oh yeah! I'm finally writing an entry on the day of, instead of the day later! Last night I fell asleep at around 9 PM, and I woke up at around 3:30 AM, very early. I fell asleep with this fan pointed at my face to prevent this one mosquito from flying in to bite me, because the rest of my...

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JustMegawatt (Lvl. 81) - April 9, 2021

Landlord Added Filter To Windows, Energetic Day

9:59 PM (of Friday, April 9th 2021) Today is Thursday, April 8th 2021 and it was a great day today. It wasn't that great in terms of what I did, but it was great in terms of how much energy I felt throughout the day. I did a bunch of chores in the morning, washing the dishes, cleaning the kitchen, ...

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JustMegawatt (Lvl. 81) - April 8, 2021

Told My Personal Trainer My Personal Problem

9:31 PM (of Friday, April 9th 2021) Today is Wednesday, April 7th 2021 and it was a very normal, very okay day. I had a terrible day yesterday though, "messing up" probably 3 times that day, just wrecking myself entirely for no good reason. Well I've written about it a bunch of times in this journ...

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JustMegawatt (Lvl. 81) - April 7, 2021

The Rabbit in the Snare

Good news: I did receive my $1200 stimulus today! I still have my fundraiser posted because every little bit is going to help me tremendously, but I felt with that a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I'll have enough to cover rent somewhere for a while, or.... more than likely just storage spa...

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iyazo (Lvl. 31) - April 7, 2021

Another Normal Day, New Friend Request

4:20 AM (of Friday, April 9th 2021) Today is Tuesday, April 6th 2021 and I don't really remember that much of today. This was the day right after I went shopping at Wal-Mart. I likely did laundry today, just half my clothes though because all my laundry wouldn't be able to fit in the sink or the ha...

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JustMegawatt (Lvl. 81) - April 6, 2021

Catastrophizing

I haven't gotten much done the past few days. I'm running low on weed to keep me calmed down. Every time I close my eyes when I'm awake I see another nightmare of what could happen to me if I'm not accepted at either house. It's getting out of control. It's a paralyzing fear. Maybe it's just because...

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iyazo (Lvl. 31) - April 6, 2021

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