Decided to do a little journaling while I'm finally awake. I slept for an entire day after I got home from the surgery. I don't even remember getting home. No one checked on me the entire time so I woke up really out of it and feeling like I had a few organs removed which at least is accurate. They ...
Today is the day of my surgery. I woke up early and on time and texted Michael to remind him to pick me up (luckily for me, because he did lose track of time, he said). At first we went to the wrong location, but the two hospitals are close so it wasn't a big deal. It's just a dreary drizzly day out...
Tomorrow morning I have my surgery. I'm a little nervous about a few different things about it. Mostly I just want to go in, go to sleep (because lord knows I'm not sleeping tonight...), and then wake up minus a few organs. Seems easy enough. So today of course was prep day. It wasn't that bad becau...
Today I am grateful for.....today almost being over. It's the next couple days which will be busy for me. I rested much of today because last night I had a migraine. I have no idea how I eventually fell asleep, but I did. I started watching The Owl House as well as Good Omens today. I like both a lo...
Today was less scary and bad. I figured out the weird feeling in my brain was from serotonin syndrome, which I've had before. I was accidentally missing doses of one of my medications and I guess that caused me to do weird things. I felt tired most of the day today. I woke up before noon for once. ...
Today I returned my heart monitor. I did some paperwork so that I can get back on food stamps. I noticed that sitting in a pile of mail for me that wasn't brought in and nobody mentioned. I hate that kind of disorganization. This means I have to go out and check every day if some bullshit came inste...
Today I think I scared myself into waking up exactly when I should. I don't know how or why that happens, but if I fixate on my fear of missing the appointment then I end up waking up on my own before the alarm even goes off. I woke up and my phone rang. I had asked Kat to call if she was awake and ...
Yesterday was the full moon on Halloween. I should have been excited. My roommates decided to hold a small house party and I just holed myself up in my room because I was too depressed to do anything. My friend said they weren't coming anyway. Undoubtedly they never planned to and probably just want...
Weed isn't supposed to be addictive, but I definitely notice when it's not in my system anymore and it makes me antsy. I ran out yesterday (again) and spent all day trying to distract myself by doing anything else, but I can't stop thinking about the pain I'm in and how I would rather be asleep righ...
Today was quite slow and uneventful. The weather hasn't been helping my pain or mood so lately I've just been laying in bed. I played through another short visual novel today which was nothing particularly special, just a way to pass the time. I skipped doing my morning workout and yoga. I haven't b...
I keep having a difficult time falling asleep and my days have been blurring together meaninglessly. The other day I was out of ambien and I didn't realize until it was too late, so I just had to deal with that. Somehow I still managed to sleep through therapy and miss it. I have my medicine now. I ...
I was supposed to go to the dentist today after missing my last appointment. Now I'm probably going to be charged a fee... Michael thought my appointment (an hour away from here) was at noon but it was Jena's and mine was at 2, but he didn't have enough time to bring me, so I had to reschedule again...
