Took today easy because I haven't been eating or sleeping very well. I almost got sick last night, but managed not to, keeping my pills down. I also was able to eat some trail mix which I have a huge bag of that I had forgotten about. Scott is coming over tomorrow around 2 and we're going to drop of...
Today went a little better than expected. I hadn't heard from Scott again yet (my friend who is supposedly giving me rides to run errands), but I did receive a reply from someone I contacted about a room. Here is something I wrote on facebook earlier, for convenience's sake. Trying not to get my ho...
I hung out with Tony on Saturday. He helped me get to the dispensary and mailed a package for me today on his way to work. He even did my laundry for me because I admitted that I was too afraid to come downstairs. He's very understanding. It was nice to just sit and smoke and watch Grace and Frankie...
I messaged Michael on facebook this morning about possibly helping me run some errands that I need to do to work on my upcoming move. He flat out told me (even though he has no involvement) that I had burnt that bridge and I needed professional help. Like yeah thanks, where the fuck do you think you...
I stayed up until 8am this morning reading through listings looking for roommates or an apartment. Nothing is within my price range, even if I spent all of the money I earn on rent alone... It's really scary and disheartening. After that I slept for nearly the whole day. I'm too depressed to start g...
I went back to the hospital. I couldn't deny that I was falling apart completely. I hadn't eaten in nearly a week and could no longer stomach water, let alone all of the medication I'm on. It was a good move. My weight was almost all the way back down to 100lbs. I stayed there for 10 days. The group...
Glitch broke up with me. She felt I was backing her into a corner and I felt like she was ignoring me for Jena. As usual, my big mouth got me in trouble and they ended up coming upstairs very angrily to get her stuff and go back to staying with Jena. She screamed at me, which is my biggest trigger, ...
Shit really hit the fan with me and Glitch. She promised that she would come back up here to sleep tonight. It's currently 5am and I've sent her messages asking what's up to get "umm I'm not going to bed yet" because they're fucking hanging out with Jena STILL. They have been already all day. I got...
The other day I stayed over at my girlfriend's house as we had romantic plans for the evening. It was really nice, but I slept basically all day afterwards and I've been tired all day today as well. It's so cute, her husky Athena really loves me and refuses to leave my side whenever I come over. She...
I forced myself to wake up no later than 3:30 after going to bed after 6am last night. Looks like the same again tonight... Spent more time with Tony today. No energy... Really need sleep...
I've kind of fallen off track with a lot in my life right now so I am taking a few days to cleanse and reset and mostly just rest. I've been spending all of my free time with Glitch who is extremely extroverted, while I am extremely introverted. She seriously can't go longer than about maybe a half ...
Glitch woke me this morning before leaving to make sure I was awake. All I wanted to do for most of the day was go back to bed. I got a strongly worded email from Jena about how they feel I'm being ableist towards them somehow and how they think I'm being manipulative. I really tried to see things f...
