I managed to wake up on time today, but that didn't leave me much time to get anything done before I went to the dentist. We got a little bit lost, but I wasn't late. I actually had to wait outside until they unlocked the door because they weren't allowing people to wait in the small waiting room. I...
The past few days Glitch has stayed over at the house. I was happy because we got to spend more time together and watch a few movies and shows and get high and cuddle. It was quite nice. I'm still a bit conflicted about how I feel about being in an actual relationship or if it would even work out be...
I had to go to a doctor's appointment in the middle of the day so Glitch spent the entire day with Tony, even after I got back. I know they're in a weird place with their relationship, but I don't want to feel jealous over something so stupid, which I felt like was kind of the point. It's not a grea...
Glitch came over when I woke up today. I woke up much later than usual (close to 3pm!) because I had trouble sleeping the night before. Even now I've stayed up a bit too late. I'm writing this at 2am right now. We just finished up watching shows and cuddling for the night. We had ordered wings from ...
I spent a lot of today anxiously passing the time, flitting from one activity to the next, trying not to focus too hard on anything. I don't know how to feel about yesterday now. Now that I think about it, I haven't been in a real relationship for several years. Almost a decade. I'm not sure I'm rea...
Today I didn't plan to do anything because Glitch was to come over, and she did. It's really the first time a girl has expressed interest in me that I've acted on... So she came up to my room and we talked for hours (well, mostly they did, because I'm more of a honestly more of a listener) but it wa...
Didn't get too much done today. I noticed that Koya seemed scared when I went to pet him. After that I noticed that when he walked he would drag his right back foot. It doesn't seem to hurt him, so I don't know that it was from fighting or the other night when the accident happened. I can't afford t...
Last night all of the sudden I heard a bunch of squeaking from the cage, which triggered me... When I lifted up the fleece, Jojo was dead... I don't want to talk about it much more than that. I was and am still very much upset. It was a really traumatic situation. I ended up taking the trash out alo...
Today my goals were to dye my hair, get the pictures I took onto my computer, and to just in general try to relax a little. I think I've succeeded at all but the last one so far haha I got up today and the house was quiet and the bathroom was cleaned up so I decided to re-dye my hair. It came out a...
Took it easy today. I went light on my workout and skipped the yoga... I really should have done it, but I had very little energy today. I wanted to take a shower but the tub is full of kid's bath toys which I refuse to clean up. I already have been feeding and watering the cats even though that's l...
Today was better than the other day if only because it was my birthday. I turned 30 at 3:15pm EST. I was able to leave the house today feeling minimally anxious, which is good because lately my agoraphobia has been pretty bad even inside of the house. I went to the dispensary and the grocery store f...
I was asked what it feels like to be nonbinary and I'm still in a place where I feel at odds with my gender and presentation. I keep thinking about how I'm most often gendered "correctly" when I wear dresses or "feminine clothes" (male pronouns, which is close enough), and get "misgendered" more whe...
