Like I need more stress. Everything was fine all day yesterday. I made some pea soup for dinner (which had no leftovers--apparently my grandson loved it) after the 17yo cleaned the kitchen for some reason. Then around 7 or 8pm, I noticed my throat was a little scratchy. I thought maybe it was from ...
I didn't get around to writing an entry here yesterday. I decided to hold off and do it after my doctor's appointment. I should have known better. There was a reason I switched to doing them in the morning after I first got up--I just get too tired later in the day to do anything. My dad did not st...
I did barely anything today. I woke up from a nightmare this morning after not taking my night medicine. My headphones were off and I had slept through my first alarm. Pretty unusual for me. It hard for me to pass out without ambien, but to be all over the place thrashing like that.... I probably ha...
Yesterday slipped through my fingers. At around 6:30 pm I realized I'd done barely anything all day. I made only the smallest sliver of progress on work. I didn't draw anything, I didn't read any Latchkey, I didn't play any Genshin Impact. Most of the day was sucked up by random Internet scrolling—l...
Today is October 16, 2020. Today is the first day of observing my mood. It's the end of the day now, and I feel like today was not a bad day. Today there was no feeling of dismatization, fatigue, anxiety and sense of meaninglessness. Last night I decided for myself that tomorrow I will not use soc...
Today went in reverse. I actually woke up to my alarm for once. The second time it went off, anyway. I went to my doctor's appointment, which went well. I have to get some routine bloodwork done which I can do at the same time I go to get covid testing done prior to having surgery. It's a month away...
I decided to not go downstairs during the morning Zoom lessons because my husband is home and will be playing video games. Which means I'm working at my desk. It doesn't mean I'm getting much done. I did try. Before I did this journal entry or anything else really, I opened the chapter I'm supposed ...
Today is October 15, 2020. I start to write all my thoughts in a notebook. I feel that I have fallen into a hole, my motivation disappears every half hour, and I don't feel like doing anything, everything seems meaningless, I just can't get into the state of flow. The reason for this is unknown. Pe...
8:39 AM (of Thursday, October 15th 2020) Today is Wednesday, October 14th 2020 and it was a pretty good and normal work day. There are some important tasks for me that are due in a day or two, but I kept getting other tasks assigned to me with higher priority interrupting my flow. So I worked on th...
Things didn't go completely as planned today, but that's ok. I got my bookshelf and small desk built. Mostly... I lost the pack of screws for the desk so the main part is together but it's not super sturdy. The two fit perfectly beside each other. Then I was able to put all of my books away with exa...
I'm not a very social person offline (and barely social online) and have severe social anxiety that keeps me from making friends or doing social things. But I do occasionally like to go to coffee houses where I write. Mostly I do this alone, but with NaNoWriMo coming up in a couple weeks, I'm really...
I spent most of my morning studying for the Math LE about Conic Sections and doing the Filipino Pambansang Wika Timeline. I am pretty sure I failed the long exam but hey it be like that sometimes. I have to improve though. I also passed the filipino timeline 27 seconds before the deadline it was kin...