I didn't do a whole lot today. I overslept again and was a half hour late to therapy. I'm lucky they're so understanding and didn't just cancel on me, so I was still able to talk to my therapist over the phone. I mentioned feeling overwhelmed and how I think I made a bad decision, but my therapist a...
It's nearly 10am, and I haven't gotten anything done yet today because my oldest daughter and grandson are in the room. I guess luckily the 10yo went upstairs to do his zoom meetings instead of staying down here. Now she's playing Sims. I try to use the two hours in the morning that the 10yo does ...
Weekly Review oct 4-11 Dont Surrender (You are giving up) Harder, Better, faster, STRONGER! A few weeks with bad numbers now in my sells job and you start just to crumble down thinking that is just fine, any way you'll still earn like 9K a month which is fine. IT IS NOT You think that just...
Today started off as an easier day. I missed my alarm again, but didn't put any pressure on myself to get up right away because the rain outside has been making me extra irritable, in pain, and depressed. It stayed rainy for the entire day so I couldn't have gone out for a walk if I had wanted to. E...
I didn't really do much on Sunday. I woke up kind of late (for me) then finished a little blanket I made for the cats (I got too sleepy to finish the last round of border the night before) and was still in the mood to do more crochet/knitting so after I did my illness journal and stuff, I pulled out...
Had a good day. In the morning, watched worlds with HGR. We got to see TSM fail spectacularly to get out of the group stage. They went 0-6 in their group, with a picture perfect ending: in their final game, they were all in the Baron pit (they finally got Baron!!) while the enemy team was quietly st...
8:01 AM (of Monday, October 12th 2020) Today is Sunday, October 11th 2020 and I can't really say that I did much today. There were some shows and movies that I watched today I guess, not really any reason to have watched anything other than to waste time. I think that's my way of "coping" to stre...
I'm completely out of money and out of medical marijuana, so getting to the end of the month is going to be difficult. I couldn't even afford to pay my rent in full, but Jena said it's ok and even made me dinner... They know that I'm doing the best that I can. My emotions right now are bordering on ...
I did get a lot of work done on my fanfic idea yesterday. I spent most of the day figuring out big plot points and how they might connect, but that's all I did. I barely left my desk and drank way too much coffee so couldn't fall asleep and slept late this morning. I guess on one hand, I feel good ...
Doing some light midnight reading about a cop who applied for, and was denied, a disability pension on grounds that he was mentally unfit for duty. Dr. ___ also noted in his report that during the interview Officer M expressed a deep hatred for African-Americans, whom he referred to throughout the...
7: 55 AM (of Monday, October 12th 2020) Today is Saturday, October 10th 2020 and today was mostly a very chill day. Yesterday the Internet came back on, and I was able to do such simple things I take for granted again such as watching movies online and listening to music. I woke up this morning at...
Yesterday was a busy day. I went out and got my rats- there are four of them! I really should have stuck with only two, but they're so cute and I have the space- the cage is going to take up the same amount of space no matter what so...four boys. They are lovely lazy lumps and I love them but I have...